On my way to work yesterday, I hit a patch of snow on the highway and lost control of my vehicle. Usually when I start spinning around in snow or ice on a residential street, I get this weird zen feeling and just know that everything will be OK, and I never feel out of control. (Not that I do much spinning as I’m a cautious driver, but I’ve had a couple on really bad icy days.) I allow the car to complete the spin while tapping the break, and it’s always OK, I’ve never hit anything. So let’s just say I did not have that feeling yesterday when I start spinning on the highway with cars zooming past me.
I was pressing the gas instead of the break without even realizing it, panicked I was going to hit someone, and when I saw the median rushing at me I thought “Wow. I’m really going to hit that.” And I did.
When it was all over, I was sitting on the highway, facing the oncoming traffic, and still moving forward because my foot was still pushing on the gas instead of the break. So I finally released the gas and stopped the car, and just stared at the traffic coming at me in shock.
I was thinking, wow, I didn’t hit anyone! Wow, my car is still running! Wow, I’M STILL ALIVE! As soon as there was a break in the traffic I did a U-turn to get going in the right direction, amazed that I was still on my way to work after such a close call. I praised God and laughed with amazement and shock all the way to work, which was a bumpy ride due to the alignment of my car now being shot.
I was so shaken up when I was clocking in, I really didn’t wonder why we were immediately called to the conference room. I thought maybe they were going to thank those who had braved the streets for not calling in due to the weather. Um, not so much. We were called in so they could tell us that the REC was closing.
It still hasn’t really sunk in that the job I’ve had for almost nine years is going away. It’s not a catastrophe for me, as I will be able to get another job within the postal service if I so desire (this isn’t true for all the employees, unfortunately), but the future is still uncomfortably uncertain. But despite this sad news, I’m happy. I’m happy to be alive.
Funny how almost dying can put things in perspective. :D Thank you, Lord. I’m thankful to be alive.